Friday, October 19, 2012

The Scream



The element of surprise. Thats the catch phrase to any good scream. Not for others, for yourself. One must surprise one's own instincts by the scream. The sound should start from somewhere behind the head, just below the cerebellum, which almost always is the garbage bin of your life. Like a fast moving avalanche, the scream should build up in pitch and volume, reaching a maxima in below 1.5 second. That moment, that instant, everything else must be a blur in the background. There should be nothing but the scream, the scream and the scream.

You can always later experiment with the type of pitch and length of the scream. My personal favourite is a sharp shrill tone a scale above the octave lasting for 5 secs. Somehow, It feels like tearing pages and pages of paper. Writing endlessly, and the scream, and then the tearing. Nothing feels more purifying than the scream at that time.


For that one moment, that instant, I actually revel in absolute chaos.

-Palash
October'12, Lumding


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

The Puppet Master

Stuck?
Sewn?
or Safe?
in between the pleats of an Italian Saree,
Absurd white with plum blue streaks,
He lurks and plots,
Hides and plots,
Even parties and plots.

When the god mother goes off to mass,
praying for the prosperity of her immortal dynasty,
Queens and King makers in a sorry democracy,
He finds his solace in the pleats once again,
this time a smiling damsel,
wearing the angel moon of her tyrant grandmother.

No one dares question the crooked V of Victory,
The drugged dove of peace,
The resounding slap of the Hand,
And How the Nehrus' became Gandhis'
And with it, came how,
the country's favourite rubber stamp of recognition.
"Gandhi!"


He is now away,
hidden from stern, hopeless public eyes,
Frightened no, a trifle anxious maybe,
But, So what if the shadow of the pleats,
left a half moon on the conning scalp?
In a country of a million of millionaires,
and a billion of ragpickers,
He buys (and sells at 600%) the strings to pull,
The Wise Puppet-Master.



-Palash
October'2012, Lumding.

Friday, September 28, 2012

A Soiree

In an evening quiet,
Four people meet around a smoke,
teacups glistening against the light,
the fireplace throws at their jewelry,
and plan,
a social plunder.

Dark shadows throw themselves on the wall,
Desperately dancing in delight,
For few good days remain it seems,
And time doesn’t ever last long enough.

The walls loom menacingly,
Smug and uptight,
Their decree sealed:
A fortress meant to bury a secret,
The world would demand to know,
One disaster day.

The conversations don’t last,
But the teas in the cups do,
Perhaps there were more pressing matters at hand…

The shadows finally arise,
Float to the door,
And bid dark solemn farewells.

On the table behind,
Two cigar stubs,
Last remaining embers of the soiree,
Let the horror of the planning sink in,
And finally,
Rightfully,
decide it’s better to die…



-Palash
September’2012, Lumding

Sunday, September 23, 2012

An Afternoon in Fall

The Sun riding on the wake of its crescendo,
Not a soul in sight, on the metalled roads breathing fire.

No more the lazy chill of the morning,
No more the insomniac warmth of the night.

The birds are finally seated for lunch,
The cattle are busy staring at shadows retreating.

No time for crazy dreams or lofty hopes,
No time for solemn rumination or  silent desolation.

Its the only time, everything is finally real, for once!
Its an afternoon in fall.



 - Palash
September'2012, Lumding







Monday, August 13, 2012

A Night of Fate

The night had set in early that day. It almost always did. 

Tucked away in an obscure countryside in Bengal, Keshavpur was a small semi-rural set-up. A beaten down railway station, two old rails cutting across the seemingly endless paddy fields en-marked in inadequately small plots by short embankments of wet mud, 20 odd families in their thatched huts, and the forest department area-an inspection bungalow, 2 quarters and a check post on the rugged road which marked the end of habitation and led to that narrow trail snaking into the forests and up the jutting hills.

“And it is not even 8!” Aditya marvelled at how time cunningly tuned in to the demands of nature. He had arrived at Keshavpur in the morning, on a department jeep along with a local boy, Prosanto, a driver cum helper in the Inspection Bungalow. He had been putting off this inspection for months. Ultimately running out of excuses, he finally had to take the 10 hour trip to the place.

***
On the verandah, by the light of a flickering hurricane lamp, Aditya savoured the silence of the night. The rains had just subsided and the smell of wet earth was pouring into the air. The constant chirping of the crickets was broken only by an occasional raucous horn from one of the bull frogs in the compound. He took a light and smoked away. 

A dimmed brightness came from one of the quarters. The bedroom in all probability. Faint, broken sounds of a sweet lullaby floated on into Aditya’s ears. 

“A Lovely voice...” In the stillness of the night, Aditya had forgotten how thoughts uncontrollably turn into words.

“That is Sanyal Didi, Aditya Babu..” Aditya’s nightly reverie was broken by Prosanto’s contribution to the happenings. “Mrs. Neha Sanyal”.

“They live all alone here?”

“Yes. Mahesh Babu is the in-charge of the four check posts around this area. It’s been a year since he came here. They married around four months back. The child is from her previous marriage.”

“She was married before?” His interest stirred, Aditya felt the lullaby-voice coming in more clearly now.

“Yes. She was expecting at the time when her former husband was convicted of a murder. He got into bad company, they said. Since he had no family, she went to live with her parents in Belampur. Two years later, her father too died. She had no option but to remarry, for the sake of her newborn and her ailing mother”

Prosanto’s matter-of-fact narration of Mrs. Neha’s story, added more poignancy to the night. For a change, Aditya began to sense, how, in the midst of such commonplace circumstances, there was always something that was distanced from normal. Something that could take hold of someone’s life by its wings, and put it on an entirely different course. Tired of his musings, he decided to sleep.

Around midnight, Aditya’s subconscious was on a roll. Tonight, it was a car with him on the wheel. He was fleeing from someone he didn’t know. Downhill, swerving dangerously around the tight corners and finally the cliff emerged out of nowhere. He missed like every time. Falling into the unfathomable depths of the gorge, he felt his insides rising.

The silence of the midnight was disturbed by a scream.

**

Aditya woke up with a start, even before he made it to the bottom of the fall. He heard the shrill cries of a woman, interspersed with the crying of a baby.

“Someone has broken into the other house, Aditya Babu!” Prosanto came running out to the porch. 

“We must call the nearby chowki! Get me that telephone!” After 3 failed attempts, Aditya was explaining to a reluctant sleepy havildar the events of the night in Keshavpur.

His attention now on the house, he realized the sounds were coming in more muffled tones now. Something inside of him, perhaps an irrational pity for Mrs. Neha, willed him to go and save her. He wasted no more time. Groping in the darkness, and cursing the erratic power supply, he took the poker from the kitchen and slowly stole up to the house.

The sounds were now coming from the front room. Nobody heard the click as the door slowly opened and Aditya’s shadow entered. 

“Please go! Please leave us alone! I beg of you!”

“But Neha...”

Nobody got to hear anything more than those last two words. Aditya flung his full might on to the burly form on his right. It fell with a thud. More shadows entered the room now, perhaps of the policemen from the chowki. Two of them carelessly picked up the man lying on the floor and dragged him to their jeep. Aditya almost began to revel in self-pride.

For some reason though, Mrs. Neha’s screams never stopped.

**
On the doorstep of that little house, Aditya stumbled over a broken chappal. Bending down to throw away the last dirty remnant of the intruder, he noticed a little toy in the corner, behind the door hinges. And a hand written note, stuck on it by some cheap glue.

“Neha...Hope you are well... Perhaps I may never get to meet you again, so I took a chance at an escape...2 years now and they still do not believe that I did not commit the murder. Not that it matters anymore. They now say I am dying of some disease. I am tired of these games now.... How is the baby?... Will you please give this to her? ...Who knows when we’ll meet again....

Time stretched out in long guilty painful moments as Aditya dragged himself to the Inspection Bungalow, the note caressed in his fist. Mrs. Neha’s sobs continued to pound the night. Even the crickets and the frogs gave their music a miss.

Except a content Prosanto, still proud at his master’s bravery, nobody slept that night in that small corner of Keshavpur.



-Palash
August 2012, Lumding

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Today


Today,
This day,
Somewhat,
Five quarter hours ago,
Curtains called on a drama,
We act and enact just out of fun,
and the jest, of earning our place in companionship.
When, with the dust of a disgruntled old file,
falling down on the velvet curtains,
A stolen memory resurfaced,
totally out of regard,
for your aloofness,
or my act.

It will,
try its best,
and act so fallible,
An obvious misguided deed,
in letting even a dormant wind,
catch it by its smug little feathers,
And having it fly among the dust in the wind yet to settle,
Then, I ,for this once, have to be inhospitable,
For I can't take this anymore,
What with the breeze,
The lazy raindrops,
The memories,
And you.


-Palash
July 2012, Lumding.


(The lines were born out of a love for order and geometry. It is a concept that has always fascinated me, the insertion of rigid mathematical order into the quivering world of poetry.)

(Each stanza in the above has thirteeen lines, each increasing in length till the 7th line, when they gradually start to fall.)

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Hiru Da Aru Nai.


“Mrityutow ata shilpo,
jibonor kothin shilot kota nirlohb bhaskarjya”

I wonder how the mind and the heart of the soul that penned the most beautiful lines ever on death, must have self-experienced the unbounded pain, reaching up to a crest hidden in the immortal clouds and then the final release, draining all physical existence from this world.

Hiren Bhattacharya, or as people lovingly called him, Hiru da, is no more in our midst. It is hard to define the void that he leaves behind, a departure of a cloud that for so long, so unrelentingly, so unfailingly showered his calming drizzles in the world of Assamese Poetry.

Looking at the numerous local news channels over the past week telecasting the recent events of his death, I felt sad. Sad and Hopeless. The world has begun to turn a sad departure into a cacophonic drama. Four words blaring over and over- “Hiru Da aru nai” for 5 long minutes and then taking off the show of guilt, happily switching over to an ad on how the Oxomiyas should finally turn to some stupid liver tonic to ward off the after-effects of the now-so-common binge-drinking fevers. 

 “Hiru Da aru Nai”

For some time maybe, it will continue to seem like the title of some story set in never land.  Story of a poet, a Jajabor, whose lines and voice travelled to all corners of the land, creating flutters among many a lost soul, and then echoing back to the person with the innocuous muna (bag), chappals and dreamy eyes.


The following day, the new channels went on damage control. Recitals of his timeless masterpieces over telecasts of his cremation in Navagraha were meant to turn people teary eyed (or TRP-eyed perhaps) in gloom. A carefully planned show of solidarity we were meant to watch and appreciate.

Meanwhile, a certain Zubeen Garg, sitting dazed with spirits near the departed, declined to comment on TV  how he felt at the great poet’s demise. “Aji no comments bey..”

And he continued slowly and sadly thumping his chest.

Xosake, Aji aru no comments.

-Palash
July 2012