Sunday, September 23, 2012

An Afternoon in Fall

The Sun riding on the wake of its crescendo,
Not a soul in sight, on the metalled roads breathing fire.

No more the lazy chill of the morning,
No more the insomniac warmth of the night.

The birds are finally seated for lunch,
The cattle are busy staring at shadows retreating.

No time for crazy dreams or lofty hopes,
No time for solemn rumination or  silent desolation.

Its the only time, everything is finally real, for once!
Its an afternoon in fall.



 - Palash
September'2012, Lumding







Monday, August 13, 2012

A Night of Fate

The night had set in early that day. It almost always did. 

Tucked away in an obscure countryside in Bengal, Keshavpur was a small semi-rural set-up. A beaten down railway station, two old rails cutting across the seemingly endless paddy fields en-marked in inadequately small plots by short embankments of wet mud, 20 odd families in their thatched huts, and the forest department area-an inspection bungalow, 2 quarters and a check post on the rugged road which marked the end of habitation and led to that narrow trail snaking into the forests and up the jutting hills.

“And it is not even 8!” Aditya marvelled at how time cunningly tuned in to the demands of nature. He had arrived at Keshavpur in the morning, on a department jeep along with a local boy, Prosanto, a driver cum helper in the Inspection Bungalow. He had been putting off this inspection for months. Ultimately running out of excuses, he finally had to take the 10 hour trip to the place.

***
On the verandah, by the light of a flickering hurricane lamp, Aditya savoured the silence of the night. The rains had just subsided and the smell of wet earth was pouring into the air. The constant chirping of the crickets was broken only by an occasional raucous horn from one of the bull frogs in the compound. He took a light and smoked away. 

A dimmed brightness came from one of the quarters. The bedroom in all probability. Faint, broken sounds of a sweet lullaby floated on into Aditya’s ears. 

“A Lovely voice...” In the stillness of the night, Aditya had forgotten how thoughts uncontrollably turn into words.

“That is Sanyal Didi, Aditya Babu..” Aditya’s nightly reverie was broken by Prosanto’s contribution to the happenings. “Mrs. Neha Sanyal”.

“They live all alone here?”

“Yes. Mahesh Babu is the in-charge of the four check posts around this area. It’s been a year since he came here. They married around four months back. The child is from her previous marriage.”

“She was married before?” His interest stirred, Aditya felt the lullaby-voice coming in more clearly now.

“Yes. She was expecting at the time when her former husband was convicted of a murder. He got into bad company, they said. Since he had no family, she went to live with her parents in Belampur. Two years later, her father too died. She had no option but to remarry, for the sake of her newborn and her ailing mother”

Prosanto’s matter-of-fact narration of Mrs. Neha’s story, added more poignancy to the night. For a change, Aditya began to sense, how, in the midst of such commonplace circumstances, there was always something that was distanced from normal. Something that could take hold of someone’s life by its wings, and put it on an entirely different course. Tired of his musings, he decided to sleep.

Around midnight, Aditya’s subconscious was on a roll. Tonight, it was a car with him on the wheel. He was fleeing from someone he didn’t know. Downhill, swerving dangerously around the tight corners and finally the cliff emerged out of nowhere. He missed like every time. Falling into the unfathomable depths of the gorge, he felt his insides rising.

The silence of the midnight was disturbed by a scream.

**

Aditya woke up with a start, even before he made it to the bottom of the fall. He heard the shrill cries of a woman, interspersed with the crying of a baby.

“Someone has broken into the other house, Aditya Babu!” Prosanto came running out to the porch. 

“We must call the nearby chowki! Get me that telephone!” After 3 failed attempts, Aditya was explaining to a reluctant sleepy havildar the events of the night in Keshavpur.

His attention now on the house, he realized the sounds were coming in more muffled tones now. Something inside of him, perhaps an irrational pity for Mrs. Neha, willed him to go and save her. He wasted no more time. Groping in the darkness, and cursing the erratic power supply, he took the poker from the kitchen and slowly stole up to the house.

The sounds were now coming from the front room. Nobody heard the click as the door slowly opened and Aditya’s shadow entered. 

“Please go! Please leave us alone! I beg of you!”

“But Neha...”

Nobody got to hear anything more than those last two words. Aditya flung his full might on to the burly form on his right. It fell with a thud. More shadows entered the room now, perhaps of the policemen from the chowki. Two of them carelessly picked up the man lying on the floor and dragged him to their jeep. Aditya almost began to revel in self-pride.

For some reason though, Mrs. Neha’s screams never stopped.

**
On the doorstep of that little house, Aditya stumbled over a broken chappal. Bending down to throw away the last dirty remnant of the intruder, he noticed a little toy in the corner, behind the door hinges. And a hand written note, stuck on it by some cheap glue.

“Neha...Hope you are well... Perhaps I may never get to meet you again, so I took a chance at an escape...2 years now and they still do not believe that I did not commit the murder. Not that it matters anymore. They now say I am dying of some disease. I am tired of these games now.... How is the baby?... Will you please give this to her? ...Who knows when we’ll meet again....

Time stretched out in long guilty painful moments as Aditya dragged himself to the Inspection Bungalow, the note caressed in his fist. Mrs. Neha’s sobs continued to pound the night. Even the crickets and the frogs gave their music a miss.

Except a content Prosanto, still proud at his master’s bravery, nobody slept that night in that small corner of Keshavpur.



-Palash
August 2012, Lumding

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Today


Today,
This day,
Somewhat,
Five quarter hours ago,
Curtains called on a drama,
We act and enact just out of fun,
and the jest, of earning our place in companionship.
When, with the dust of a disgruntled old file,
falling down on the velvet curtains,
A stolen memory resurfaced,
totally out of regard,
for your aloofness,
or my act.

It will,
try its best,
and act so fallible,
An obvious misguided deed,
in letting even a dormant wind,
catch it by its smug little feathers,
And having it fly among the dust in the wind yet to settle,
Then, I ,for this once, have to be inhospitable,
For I can't take this anymore,
What with the breeze,
The lazy raindrops,
The memories,
And you.


-Palash
July 2012, Lumding.


(The lines were born out of a love for order and geometry. It is a concept that has always fascinated me, the insertion of rigid mathematical order into the quivering world of poetry.)

(Each stanza in the above has thirteeen lines, each increasing in length till the 7th line, when they gradually start to fall.)

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Hiru Da Aru Nai.


“Mrityutow ata shilpo,
jibonor kothin shilot kota nirlohb bhaskarjya”

I wonder how the mind and the heart of the soul that penned the most beautiful lines ever on death, must have self-experienced the unbounded pain, reaching up to a crest hidden in the immortal clouds and then the final release, draining all physical existence from this world.

Hiren Bhattacharya, or as people lovingly called him, Hiru da, is no more in our midst. It is hard to define the void that he leaves behind, a departure of a cloud that for so long, so unrelentingly, so unfailingly showered his calming drizzles in the world of Assamese Poetry.

Looking at the numerous local news channels over the past week telecasting the recent events of his death, I felt sad. Sad and Hopeless. The world has begun to turn a sad departure into a cacophonic drama. Four words blaring over and over- “Hiru Da aru nai” for 5 long minutes and then taking off the show of guilt, happily switching over to an ad on how the Oxomiyas should finally turn to some stupid liver tonic to ward off the after-effects of the now-so-common binge-drinking fevers. 

 “Hiru Da aru Nai”

For some time maybe, it will continue to seem like the title of some story set in never land.  Story of a poet, a Jajabor, whose lines and voice travelled to all corners of the land, creating flutters among many a lost soul, and then echoing back to the person with the innocuous muna (bag), chappals and dreamy eyes.


The following day, the new channels went on damage control. Recitals of his timeless masterpieces over telecasts of his cremation in Navagraha were meant to turn people teary eyed (or TRP-eyed perhaps) in gloom. A carefully planned show of solidarity we were meant to watch and appreciate.

Meanwhile, a certain Zubeen Garg, sitting dazed with spirits near the departed, declined to comment on TV  how he felt at the great poet’s demise. “Aji no comments bey..”

And he continued slowly and sadly thumping his chest.

Xosake, Aji aru no comments.

-Palash
July 2012

Friday, June 15, 2012

Today.

Magpies dancing,
Busy body ants,
Flying cockroaches,
Sober afternoon,
Absent sunlight.
I am having a monsoon.

Spoilt precedents dancing,
Busy body kingmakers,
Flying nominations,
Sober citizens,
Absent common sense,
My country is choosing a president.

I bang a row of teeth against a slanted light post,
a drop of my country's blood falls on the dirty sandy host.

-15/06/12
Lumding.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

In Hiding.

I now marvel,
Perhaps foolishly,
But with a sarcastic understanding,
Not at your modest speech,
Or your never-ending silence,
But at those undercurrents of chance,
That let;
Me be me
And you be you.

In that fated soil,
13 across 13 across 8,
Which never beheld you,
As I used to do;
The rains have subsided,
The storms have lulled,
And the stillness in the air,
Spreads silence like wildfire.

Everyone inside fears,
even an extra trickle of unnecessary fate,
that would disturb this lazy comforting calm.

Meanwhile,
I lie cocooned in a crazy atmosphere of noise,
and pandemonium,
Lest those sounds of silence come looking for me again,
hiding in the attic of egos,
Trying forever,
Not to be me.
Even if you are still you.




-Palash
June 2012, Lumding.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

The Walls.


Many years back, Roger Waters had written a searing melodrama about a bloke called Pink. Rock star/Entertainer Pink had had too much of everything in his life, too much adulation, too much applause, too much publicity. The painful events in his life, which were not so obvious to the fast changing world, had built up a wall around him, brick by brick. Pink fell into self oblivion, no longer being the person he was meant to be.

The tale of walls assuming significance in our perspective of life is nothing new. They are not mere structures of brick, stone and mortar. I perceive a building has walls because it wants to have a stand on its own, its own separate demarcated existence on geography. 

From the nuggets of history, examples can be picked up from the Great Wall of China, a 2000 year old 8000 km long magnificent fortification of a kingdom. A barrier to nomadic intruders. A stamp of an authoritative civilization. More poignant and symbolic is the Berlin Wall. Antifaschistischer Schutzwall (German) was built by the GDR, against their claim of protecting East Berlin from the purportedly still not denazified West Berlin. More than a wall, it was a bloody cut across the face of Berlin. The myriad murals on the west german side stood silent testimony to the thousands of east germans who tried and died failing an escape from their own motherland. 

There are walls around and within us. Like an inseparable part of our compatmentalized identities. What someone is to me, may not be the same someone to you. Its just not only a matter of vivid perception, but what people are and what they really let others know. Little peeled off slices of memories, of childhood, of teenage, of being adults; and the experiences from them, sustain and build the bricks of those walls. Sometimes, these walls break, and sometimes, they just keep getting built and built.

Late into the night, I watched the Berlin Wall being clobbered down, amidst hysterical euphoria. People hugging, celebrating and waving comfetti into the still german air. I glanced into my own walls, and whispered a soothing lullaby to myself, lest they collapse in the apparent apprehension. “I need you now” I told.

It will just be the bricks that will have to go.

“Walk up and down outside the wall.
Some hand in hand
And some gathered together in bands.
The bleeding hearts and artists
Make their stand.
And when they've given you their all
Some stagger and fall, after all it's not easy
Banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall.
"Isn't this where....”

(Outside the Wall- Waters)





-Palash
May 2012, Lumding.